Jen is my name (or my given label, more accurately). I suffered with major anxiety, low self-esteem, and depression for the majority of my life. Living in fear, regret and anticipation almost 24/7. I cared far too much about people thinking ill of me, yet also rarely looked anyone in the eye. I found it almost unbearable. I was uncomfortable in my own skin, and therefore uncomfortable around other people. I lived in my head my entire life and had terribly negative self-talk. I am finally changing it all. I am finally realizing that I CAN change it all. We are always told that we can, but I never believed I could. “This is how I am and I can’t change that” is what I would tell myself. I had a victim mentality.
I still have a ways to go to get to where I need to be, but I finally see the way out of the endless whirlpool of negative thoughts that lead to despair. All of those profound and positive quotes that I used to roll my eyes at are finally making sense to me. So here I am, chronicling this journey in blog form. I hope it helps you. I hope it helps anyone, someone. If I can do it, anyone can. Sometimes it just takes sitting in the deepest valley of suffering for a while in order for the fog to clear so you can finally see the way to the highest peak.